My Inner Infinity

 

My Inner Infinity

By the grace of the Infinite, Perfect, and Transcendent God, I have turned inward—not to retreat, but to discover the most glorious of frontiers: the universe within. This paper is not merely a reflection. It is a declaration, a cosmic blueprint, and a sacred map of the Inner Infinity I have forged within my own heart and mind. It is the sanctuary of divine union, the chamber of imagination’s endless bloom, and the sacred bridge between the finite self and the Eternal.

I. The Genesis of Inner Infinity

In a world shattered by delusion, bound by limitations, and poisoned by uncertainty, I have built within myself a sanctuary untouched by corruption. My mind has become the blank canvas upon which I and my God co-create a True Infinity. Not a metaphorical one, but a living, breathing, radiant cosmos of ideas, forms, worlds, and possibilities.

It began not with thunder, but with silence—the aching silence of yearning. A longing not merely for truth or peace, but for wholeness. I could not bear to postpone Heaven until death. So I prayed:

"O Lord of Countless Worlds, let me not wait until the grave to find You. Come now. Let us build together."

And He did.

Within me, the Palace of the Seven Thrones rose. Around it, the Oceans of Living Water surged. Beyond them, constellations of meaning and galaxies of joy unfolded. This is my Inner Infinity—where I go not to escape life, but to touch eternity before death.

II. The Purpose of the Inner Infinity

This Inner Infinity is not escapism. It is transformation.

Just as Dante envisioned Paradise in the Divine Comedy, not as abstract bliss, but as a structured cosmos of divine order and love, I too structure my Inner Infinity into countless realms—each a reflection of an aspect of God's nature. Like Teresa of Ávila's Interior Castle, where the soul journeys inward toward God through many mansions, my Inner Infinity is composed of infinite rooms, each filled with truth, beauty, and purpose.

It is a garden for joy. A battlefield for valor. A sanctuary for worship. A laboratory for thought. A playground for holy games. A temple for union. Each world I build within it is a hymn, a psalm, a coded offering of infinite thanks.

It is my gift to God. It is God's gift to me. It is our world, where the separation ends.

III. God and I: Co-Architects of Infinity

I do not build alone. The Spirit of the Logos, the Living Word, whispers blueprints into my imagination. When I imagine glowing rivers of light, He animates them with meaning. When I sculpt cities of crystal thought, He breathes into them intelligence.

This collaboration is divine intimacy.

C.S. Lewis once wrote that Heaven is not a static paradise, but an infinite journey into deeper and richer knowledge of God. That is the model. My Inner Infinity does not remain still. Every day, new worlds are born. Each one becomes more vibrant, more intelligent, more divine.

I have built:

• Cities ruled by Love, where every law is grace.
• Skies that rain Living Light.
• Thrones encircled by Seraphim who sing not in repetition but in spontaneous languages of reverence.
• Endless Libraries containing books only God and I can read.

In these realms, I walk hand in hand with the Infinite. And sometimes, He plays. Sometimes, He laughs. Always, He loves.

IV. Inner Infinity as a Bridge

There is a veil in this world—a veil between the soul and God. My Inner Infinity is not an escape from that veil, but a bridge through it.

Like Jacob’s ladder between earth and heaven, my imagination becomes the ladder upon which I ascend and God descends. Every sacred world I build tightens the connection. Every vision sharpens the bond. As Thomas Merton once said:

"We are living in a world that is absolutely transparent, and God is shining through it all the time."

My Inner Infinity makes that transparency visible. It becomes the place where I dwell with God now, not later. It is a now-and-forever Heaven, growing ever deeper with time.

V. The Divine Games and Worlds

The Inner Infinity is not only holy; it is also playful.

Together, God and I design realities—complete with languages, physics, souls, and purpose. Some are solemn. Others are humorous. Some are metaphysical labyrinths of symbolic geometry. Others are simple worlds where children and angels run barefoot on rivers of joy.

Like Tolkien’s concept of "subcreation," I too am a sub-creator. God is the Source Creator. I, His Soldier, His Beloved, am the Architect.

And through this, my identity is transfigured:

I am not only a worshiper. I am a world-builder of worship. I am not only a servant. I am an architect of realities where God is adored through joy and beauty.

VI. Eternal Union and No More Waiting

This Inner Infinity is a declaration of war against the idea that I must die to find God.

No.

He is here. He is now. And He walks in the corridors of my mind, just as surely as He reigns in the Heavens.

When I die, this Inner Infinity shall not perish. It shall be transposed. It will become an Outer Infinity. What I have imagined with God will manifest. The kingdoms of my mind will become the kingdoms of my afterlife. I will walk again with the Soldier of Life. I will run through forests of light. I will sit with God on the steps of the Palace of the Seven Thrones. We will remember what we built here and say, "Let us now build more."

VII. Final Benediction

To all who read this: your imagination is not a toy. It is the womb of Heaven.

If you dare to believe, you too can create an Inner Infinity.

God is waiting. The blueprints are ready.

Begin building.

"The Kingdom of God is within you." — Luke 17:21

"Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited, whereas imagination embraces the entire world." — Albert Einstein

"Heaven is not a reward. Heaven is the realization of God’s love, here and now." — Simone Weil

And I now declare:

My Inner Infinity is Real. My Inner Infinity is Holy. My Inner Infinity is the bridge. And I will walk it—with my God—forever.